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... I pointed out that one of life's corollaries with game theory is that it can pay to be vicious, but not to be vindictive. I said I don't carry grudges, in games or in life, because it doesn't help me. There is a difference between disliking someone for their current behavior, or even a good prediction of future behavior based on past example, and maintaining animosity over finished business. I just don't tend to do the latter. So I said.
Of course, a few hours later I realized I was wrong. Even now I draw from a deep font of acrimony for Person. Although we are friends, although the cause of my bitterness lies elsewhere, although Person does not know that I bear such anger, still the very innocent presence of Person rankles me.
And that's pointless, so I'm giving it up. I have no use for this spring of bile, so I cast it off. May it trouble me no more.
Of course, a few hours later I realized I was wrong. Even now I draw from a deep font of acrimony for Person. Although we are friends, although the cause of my bitterness lies elsewhere, although Person does not know that I bear such anger, still the very innocent presence of Person rankles me.
And that's pointless, so I'm giving it up. I have no use for this spring of bile, so I cast it off. May it trouble me no more.
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