"Goeth would have bought this car. Why did I keep the car?"

[learnedax]

Tomorrow (technically tonight, whatever) I'll be off to Vegas in a happy neon haze. So tonight's when I get the misgivings out of the way.

Back in November I said to new_man "do you want to skip Vegas and go back down south?", but I didn't really have enough time off to go down for another week, and less wouldn't really be worth it, so we planned to go have fun instead. As it turns out, even without impacting my job hunt or social calendar I could have taken off this week and next — it's hard not to think that I should have called him up a week ago and changed our plans. That even now we could change our minds and get a week of work done. I know that's not realistic at this point, and I know that we've "done enough", but I don't want to feel like I've done my part and I can ignore it. I want the job to be done. I don't know when I'll have another good chance to do something about it.

Oh, well. I'm going to Vegas, I'm not going to feel bad about it while I'm there, and I probably won't feel guilty about it later. I'm as entitled to have fun as anyone else. But... It's been a sucky week, and I could have spent it building houses rather than gazing at my navel.

Comments

[rufinia.livejournal.com]

You would have been building houses while being sick. That wouldn't have been good for you or, possibly, the houses.

Go. Have fun. Eat food. If you win money, send some of it down South.

[pisicutsa.livejournal.com]

Building Houses? As in Habitat for Humanity or some such? That's very kewl. *is impressed*. Someday it would be neat for my volunteer work to involve power tools...

[learnedax.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I want to work with Habitat. Three of us went down to Mississippi and Louisiana the first week of November doing relief work, but that was before HfH had started its operations; we were still at the feeding people and clearing debris stage. I'd like to be involved with the reconstruction phase as well, but I don't know if I'm willing to give up Pennsic to do it.